Sunday, May 30, 2010

رسائل لبابا... 2

عبدالرحيم و هناء، بروكسل 1967
Re: تحياتي

From: Hannu Naas

To: Abdulrahim Naas

صباحك صباح الخير والأنوار يا بابا،


كم أسعدتني رسالتك التي استصبحت بها اليوم. والله كلنا مقصرين معاك لو تأتي للحق. للأسف مشاغل الحياة تلهي الناس وتضبب الرؤية لديهم عما هو مهم بالفعل. ربما ما مررت به أخيراً فتح عينيّ على حقائق عدة عن الحياة وأولوياتها، وكما يقولون بالإنجليزي ربما هذا هو البطانة الفضية لهذه التجربة الصعبة. الحقيقة هي أن قيمة حياة الإنسان لا تفاس بعدد السنين التي يحياها ولكن بعمله في هذه الحياة وما قدمه لنفسه ولمن حوله وللبشرية بصفة عامة. يختلفون البشر على الدين لدرجة قتل بعضهم البعض، ويغفلون عن أن الدين ما هو إلا تهذيب وأخلاق مهما أختلفوا في إسم الرب أو طريقة العبادة والإتصال به.


المهم، من وجهة نظري، أفضل أن تكون حياتي قصيرة نسبياً ولكن غنية بالعلم والمعرفة والعطاء والتجارب والتكرس لما فيه النفع للبشر، فهكذا تقاس حياة العظماء... والحمد لله أنني ولدت لأب مثلك لم يبخل علي بأي من هذه الأشياء وهو الذي وصلني لما أنا فيه اليوم من نضوج عقلي وذهني و طموح للأفضل دائماً. حقاً كنت--وستظل دوماً--أفضل معلم لي في هذه الحياة. أعرف أنه هناك الكثير والكثير في جعتبك لتعلمنا إياه، ولا أريد أن أهدر هذا المصدر بقل التواصل والإهتمام. للأسف مجتمعنا ليس بهذه الدرجة من الرقي ليعي أهمية من مثلك في بناء المجتمع والأجيال الجديدة وخاصة بما في جعبتكم من خبرات وتجارب في هذه المرحلة من دورة الحياة والتي هي مهمة لأتمام حلقة التطور البشري.


والله مش عارفة ما الذي جعلني أتفلسف لهذه الدرجة على الصبح، بس رسالتك جد أفرحتني وأطلقت العنان لهذه الدردشات، وأعجبني كثيراً أنها بخط يدك، بصمة مهمة للإنسان معرضة للمحي من قبل التكنولوجيا إذا تغاضينا عنها. المهم سعيدة أنك لديك هذه الأهتمامات ولديك المجال لشبعها، وأنشالله لا تمل أو تكل من القراءة وتتبع الأخبار والمستجدات في عالمنا هذا والأستمرار في رحلة التطوير الذاتي.


نهارك مبارك إنشالله وللحديث بقية،


هناء

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Flower Power!

I got up around 7 am today. Had my Everything bagel (upper half, toasted) with whipped cream cheese and coffee with milk while checking my email. Then I started cooking tajeen, peas stew, and rice with chick peas, cleaned around the house a bit, paid some bills... And in between all of that, I finished loads of laundry including that we brought from Hocking Hills' trip last weekend, and the kids nagging wanting to play in the sprinkler.

Once I finished my chores, the three of us got in the car heading to the nursery to get some flowers and plants. Sol got into the driveway as we were getting out of the garage. We left Sol to maw the grass, ordered asked him to prepare the flower pots for when we come back, and went our way. We loaded a cart with beautiful flowers and potting soil and came home. I was exhausted! I let the kids join Sol in the yard... Of course, they immediately turned the sprinkler on and got in it!--and I lied on the sofa to rest some.

Later, Tala and I spent some time planting the flowers. There's no better than getting the hands dirty with soil! I missed gardening. For years, my garden was beautiful and I enjoyed caring for it, but not the last couple of summers. I think it would have helped me if I continued, but well, everything takes its time. It's amazing how relaxing gardening could be, digging, planting, arranging, watering... I should get back into it even if it's only potted flowers. Let the power of flower take over :)

It was a beautiful day and we got a lot of beautiful things done... including Bazeen. We have not had it for a while; it was good! Oh, and I got a beautiful rose bush called The Double Knockout Rose to plant by the mailbox, I meant for Sol to plant by the mailbox. It blooms bright dense red roses from spring to first frost. And yes, Tala lost another tooth while eating anise cookie (kaaka) so a visit from Shamsa is looming!


Thursday, May 13, 2010

That's My Lella!

Tala took the Terra Nova CAT and InView achievement test in March. She brought the report yesterday. TerraNova is a series of standardized achievement tests used in the United States designed to assess K-12 student achievement in reading, language arts, mathematics, science, social studies, vocabulary, spelling, and other areas.

The graph below shows Tala's National Percentile score. Tala achieved a National Percentile of 99 in total score. This means that she scored higher than 99% of the students in the US.

Way to go Tala!


Sunday, May 09, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!


Family Portrait

We all squeezed in the Photo booth last night at Easton for this picture. It reminds me of one Sol and I took in 1998 in a train station in Zurich on our way back to the US from Tunisia. I'll dig it out.
 
Breakfast in Bed Menu

This is the menu for the breakfast Moody and Tala treated me to this morning. They wrote what the menu is and who's responsible for preparing what. Pretty organized and god team work!







A card from Moody


Love letters from Tala


Sunday, May 02, 2010

The Boys and I

It is true what they say that men cannot handle stress well. I know my 2 boys can't for sure. Sol and Moody both have been stressing out since my recent diagnosis. And Tala, sweet Lella, is always the balancing act!

Most of the time I seem fine, happy, and energetic; but it does not come without a lot of effort on my end. I need to be strong, but I also need those around me to be strong for me. I cannot deny them their feelings and frustration, but I wish they'd share them and talk about them.

C'mon guys, chill and help me out--let's focus please. You are the source of my strength, you give me reason to carry on... hmmm, isn't that a song?! I love you!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

On The Other Side

When I was receiving radiation in February of last year, I would meet many other patients in the lounge. It puzzled me how some of them seemed to be upbeat and had a positive attitude despite what they are going through. I assumed that it must have been their nature or personal trait. Well, being back in the same place last week, I noticed a change in my attitude. I am one of the veterans now, like those people I always envied.

Yesterday, there were 2 guys and one lady who are going through the treatment for the first time. I listened in as they were sharing tips and talking about their experience and thoughts. I wanted to chip in and tell them not to worry, it will all pass and they will come to my side of the fence eventually. I wanted to tell them that their struggle will merely become another fact of life one learns to deal with. But I kept quiet; everyone needs to travel the journey themselves. They were also discussing how chemo makes the cancer cells more susceptible to radiation. I wanted to chip in again and say it's the other way round: radiation sensitizes the cancer cells and make them more susceptible to chemo... but I kept quiet again :)

While waiting, one lady, in her late 70s, came in a wheel chair guided by a medic. She was bald and had a white feathery hat, like an ostrich's. She sat next to that other patient with a wig and they started a conversation.
Wig lady: I can't do the bald look; I have to wear a wig!
Ostrich lady: It's beautiful to be bald. You can do so much with your bald head. I once had an artist draw some artwork on my bald head. Another time, I had him draw beautiful eyes at the back of my head.
Wig lady: Good for you; that's not something I can do. I need hair on my head even if it's a wig.
Ostrich lady: I don't need no wig. I have enough charisma and charm to make me look good--hair or no hair, wig or no wig!
Everybody in the room erupted in laughter. Good for her! The ostrich lady is definitely not burying her head in the sand.

Now I know that in one point of my journey I will reach that stage where she is. One stage at a time--there's a lot to reflect on and to learn from at every stage. Starting today, I'll be going there daily to be treated, entertained, and enlightened by the scores of people I meet there.

Kudos to the Ostrich Lady!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Building Without a View!


When I started at my current place of work 3 years ago, my office was in the Tech Center, the infamous Tech Center! It is a building with no windows at all! Imagine in the winter time: I'd get to the office when it's still dark and leave when it's already dark. So, if I don't get out of the building during the day to walk to another building, I would never see daylight. You can't even tell what the weather is like, rain, shine, snow, windy, etc. It was dreadful.

We call the Tech Center a maze, because you could really get lost with the so many corridors that can only accommodate one person at a time and offices along both sides. Really, people do get lost, I did couple of times.

First, I was in office 209, then moved to 219, then 229. I thought back then that my next move would be 239 and I even located office 239 to familiarize myself with it. Well, my subsequent move was to the CSB Building in Spring of 2009. The building had open space with cubicles and high narrow windows that let the sunlight in. They were not much or many of them, but we could see the natural light. The other nice thing about the CSB building is the lounge downstairs that had benches. My colleagues and I got in the habit of eating our lunch there instead of at our desks. It gave us a nice break from work and provided a fresh start to the rest of the day.

I moved office again this past Thursday. And guess where to? Yep... the dreadful Tech Center! My manager told me I'll be in an office and I was not thrilled about that. I liked being in an open space in a cubicle. And there are now big rooms in the Tech Center that were recently created and remodeled with cubicles. Well, my manager was treating me to an office, so I took it unwillingly.

The move was needed for my group, Supplier Quality. We are part of the Purchasing organization and that's where Purchasing is located. It's also the building where Engineering is located and we do interact with them constantly.

Settling in my new office had a surprisingly pleasant effect on me. It's like walking into your home after a long period of absence. Same feeling I used to get when we go back to our house in Benghazi after being abroad for many months every summer. But of course, there were no flipped cockroaches in the Tech Center like the ones we'd find in our home in Benghazi.

It was nice to be back there. I almost know everyone in the building and was part of that group 2 years ago. Colleagues and friends kept stopping by my office to greet and welcome me back. I got a couple of office-warming gifts :) And I took a stroll around to let others know that "I'm Back!"

I finished unpacking in my new office yesterday. And around 5 I packed my computer, portfolio, and other things to take home with me. I'll be working from home starting Monday because of chemo and radiation. I changed my voice mail on the desk phone so people could contact me on cell instead. I taped a note to my door saying I'm working offsite and how I could be contacted. I turned the lights off and shut the door. I felt gloomy and sad leaving the office knowing I might not be back there full time for at least another 6 weeks. It is amazing how you could react to things and how your mind or psych surprises you with a different reaction. I really like the new setting and wished I didn't have to leave now. Well, I will be back and I might find pictures like the ones below to transform my office!

I left the office with get-well wishes and offers of support and help. I enjoyed a get-well-soon lunch with my colleagues at the Indian-Greek restaurant.

Essence of this tought: Always keep an open mind... Things might not be what they seem to be... Embrace change and anticipate to be surprised!


Wednesday, April 07, 2010

And Life Goes On!

I'm scheduled to start radiation and chemotherapy on April 19th. Tests have been going on since October to determine if there's a recurrence. Biopsy is negative, CT-Scan is negative, but PET-Scan was not. Another biopsy was taken yesterday with not much success. The doctors were not interested in the biopsy, but I insisted. I told them that if it comes positive, it will stop the what-if's going in my head all the time; it would give me peace of mind if you can call it that... My name, Hana, means peace of mind!

I went in today to do the planning for the radiation treatment. That's when I get tattoos on my body to mark the area to be treated. Dr. Kim told me that he'd order an ultrasound-guided biopsy before I start treatment. He is now looking for some conclusive evidence of the recurrence. It's a puzzle to them since I'm healthy with no indication of a recurrence but for the lump in my abdomen and the PET-scan. The route is that I will go through with the treatment either way. Better safe than sorry.

It is amazing how the body and mind adjust and learn how to deal with this situation. I am not the same I was a year ago, and at times, I'm surprised at my own reaction and coping with the fact that I have a terminal illness. I guess it is the survival instinct. And I don't believe it has to do with being strong or anything like that--it's simply human nature.

The prospect of imminent death brings on a different kind of maturity and a new look to one's life. Dealing with this situation is an emotional experience, an intense one. For me, first there was denial; then anger, depression, and sadness; and now finally peace. Yes, I'm in peace with whatever life brings me.

I will live my life to the fullest. Cancer cannot define my life or my lifestyle, and I sure do not want it to define who I am and my relations with friends, family, and the world. I want to be in constant touch with family and friends, but I don' want my illness or treatment to be the focus or the driver of those relations. I will talk about my struggle when I feel like it. I want to talk more about life and its wonders, ups, and downs and everything in between. I want to live life!

I've had a good life and will continue to have a wonderful life... as long as I'm alive!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Profiles in Abnormality: Mohammed Shaltami

Mohammed F. Shaltami, 1945-2010.
[Source: www.tieob.com]

Libyan poet Mohammed ash-Shaltami lived all of his sixty-five years in Benghazi, except for the time he spent moving between political prisons in different cities. On Wednesday, 24 March 2010, Libya said farewell to a poet who symbolized the triumph of love over pain, principle over tyranny. He started his professional career as a school teacher at the age of 18, which was not uncommon in Libya of the early 60's, when need trumped qualifications. One of my vivid memories of second grade is saying farewell to our teacher who had graduated high school and had to leave Misrata to one of two universities, Tripoli or Benghazi. He went to Benghazi, in fact, because in those days the academic major (literary or else scientific) essentially decided the campus, and most literary majors went to Benghazi. That was also a turbulent time on the regional level, a time when populations and ideologies multiplied.

Shaltami spent a lot of time as a prisoner of conscience, under both of the--opposed--political regimes that have ruled Libya since its 1951 independence. Under the first regime, Shaltami was detained in 1967, charged with belonging to the Movement of Arab Nationalists. His poetry was really what got him in trouble because it was seen as subversive literature that ran in support of the whole wave of "ists", including pan-Arabist, revivalist, revolutionist, socialist, leftist, communist, etc. All of these were seen as externally motivated threats and met with force by the ruling regime. In 1969 Libya got its turn at "revolution," bearing many of the fashionable slogans of the day. Four years later, in 1973, and under the banner of "cultural revolution" the new Libyan regime decided there would be only one "ist" and they went on a cleansing campaign against the "reactionaries," or call them enemies of the Ist, and this brought Shaltami to his first, brief encounter with revolutionary oppression.

Shaltami's last imprisonment was brought on by the university student unrest in April, 1976. That was my final year of high school. In those days, the "demo-n-rally" industry was going strong, fueled by oil and revolutionary hot air. The government sent busses to load up boys and girls from Tripoli high schools, and other government employees, and all of them thought it was just another rally. At the University of Tripoli, the students had staged a sit-in to protest government interference in the student union elections. The protesting students were told they would be trampled upon by the marching forces of the revolution. It was an awful bloody confrontation of ignorant vs. innocent, both sides framed in a position of self defense. The date of April 7th was then proclaimed "Student Revolution Day" and subsequently marked every year with arrests and on-campus executions of students who were fingered as "enemies of the revolution." The hangmen, and women, were also student ideologues that were empowered by the ruling regime.
Resist your enemies
And reject the edicts that eulogize you to yourself
Before, during and after the dreaded April of 1976, Shaltami's poetry figured prominently in the literature of protesting students. That was his crime, and for that he paid 12 years of his life under cruel and inhumane conditions. The words he had written to foretell the coming of the dawn became slogans to protest the amassing darkness, and that I believe was his cross to bear far beyond 12 years. The university students who were involved in the April 7th tragedy were from the same generation he had taught in elementary and middle school. How could a man bear the pain of seeing his children killing each other, and how could he justify to himself that his mere words were used both to motivate and to condemn?

After his release from prison in 1988, the poet kept away from the public. He was once an official Sufi, subscribing to the Alawi-Shadhli approach, and that must have helped guide his inward journey for healing, which I think he reached ultimately and found balance in humanism. He did not publish anything for at least two decades. Of course he kept his personal relations, but to the public he left only his poetry, never compromising. He must have been under all sorts of pressure, from all sides, to write for and against, but he didn't. The revolutionary poet who was silenced by the revolution had bigger concerns.

In hindsight, perhaps one can say his public silence not only made his poetry more audible, but it was also received as the best available form of steadfast resistance. His image was imprinted, and he did nothing to change it when he finally returned. His last published collection from 2002 includes poems he wrote in prison.

One of many eulogies of Mr. Shaltami came from his friend and former prison-cell mate, Dr. Mohammed al-Mufti, who included a quoted passage that had previously been censored out of his book "Dialogues." In this passage, Shaltami describes some of what happened to him in April of 1976. The following is my translation of the Arabic original.

I was arrested on April 11th, 1976. An informant came to me in the National Library and took me to the Military Police Camp in Birka. There he turned me over, his farewell to me was, "God help you."

I ended up with a high ranking army officer. Hasan Ashkal. As soon as he saw me he started reciting a chant. I thought he was joking. He took my bag, which contained a copy of the Quran, a prayer rug, and packs of cigarettes. The prayer rug was red. He started displaying it to the prisoners and the guards while repeating, "Didn't we tell you he is a communist? Even the prayer rug is red."

He turned to me and said, "The Revolution was white, and we will turn it red with your blood." Then he picked up a thick steel cable and starting hitting me. I began to recite verses from the Quran, and his voice began fading away from my hearing. I fell on the floor, and I saw his footsteps. He jumped in the air and landed with all his weight on my chest. Then I became unconscious, and didn't recover until night time. I was wet, and the cell was flooded with water. They repeated the episode on the next day, in the presence of the detained students and the officer had ordered them to cheer. Poor guys. What the others experienced was worse than what happened to me.
...

And the wanton blow kills my feet
But I sing
And the whip disappears in my flesh
But I sing
And I sing
...
Also taking part in torturing me was an officer of the secret police. May Allah forgive him. I knew him by a strange twist of fate. We were together as students in Sidi Hussein school. Both of us were poor, barefoot and not diligent! We shared the same desk. During the interrogations he would mention our acquaintance repeatedly. And he used to search for information as much as he took pleasure from the screams of his victims. Regretfully I recall that in school, as a child, he always volunteered to inform on any disorderly students.

In a few days the treatment changed. Injuries to my head were numerous. And they started treating me. The chief interrogator used to come to me and repeat, "I do not know you. The matter is not personal. I am one with a cause." And he used to ask me for forgiveness.

Years later, the two men died. Both were killed. Such is life. Whoever ends his role leaves the theater of life.
Below, I include a poem by Mohammed Shaltami entitled "Letter to the Children," which I translated to English. The original text in Arabic can be read here and here. I present the translated poem with a necessary disclaimer. It is difficult for me to translate poetry, especially since it can be laden with double entendre and various codes and symbolisms. In this case, the language is unusually simple and direct, but nonetheless capable of multiple interpretations. For example, the poem uses a verb that could mean "to push forth," "to offer," or "to pay." Who knows what the poet meant? Recognizing that he was aware of all the multiple meanings, I use them all.

Sometimes I think translating poetry is like making a black and white reproduction of an oil painting. But, even if the color is distorted or lost all together, there is--I hope--still some hints of the original form left. In addition, I have had no formal education in the presentation or appreciation of western poetry. I sincerely apologize for all shortcomings in this translated poem, and I assure you they are all of my making.

Letter to The Children

Here I am offering my head to the hangman
On a plate of revolutionary poetry and pure anger
For love
For your sake, my children awed
By this world
As the eyes of hatchlings of down-feathered birds
And I know you have no water
I know you have no trees
And I know that
No Omar bin al-Khattab do I encounter
At the military prison
And I know... but
For your sake
My two children, and for the sake of all children
In all the forsaken land
In our noisy world, I pay
I pay the hangman with my head
On a plate of revolutionary poetry, so that I may seed
In my tomb today
For your sake and for the sake all the children, sweeter
Than the excited colors of the summer moon,
Nurseries of olives and carnations
That when my branches extend over the grave
You would find shade
And thus I offer my head to the hangman
Embracing "No" in the face of the hysterical hatred, visible
On the brow of the Age

I don't know,
If I were not to accept my death anywhere anytime
I would hide my face from you
When you discover the oppression
What am I to say to you, if you came
O my children
Saddened and wronged
Because the world is worse than
To tolerate humans

And life
Is unworthy of all the minutes
Or moments of the vanishing lifetime
When the moment is empty
Of meaning
So we tie to the cross of hollow time
All the years of lifetime

Where am I to hide my face from you
When you discover that I
Was the culprit
Was the slayer and the slain
And was drowning in my sorrows

What am I to say to you if you came
Offended
And the police had cracked in the dark times
The heads of children
So I would feel that I was the police
I was the age
And I was the culprit

And thus I offer to the hateful hangman
My head
On a plate of revolutionary poetry and pure anger
For love
So I may kindle for your sake
And for the sake of all children, a candle
So when the night veils and turns horrific
And long
I would dissipate with the light poured with drops
Of my blood
Some of the loneliness

O Breast down of wild hatchlings
Here I am offering my head to the hangman
On a plate of poetry of silver and pure gold
And love
So that I may come to know through poetry the way of the Lord
And I know you have no water
I know you have no trees
I know that no Omar b. al-Khattab I meet in the military prison
And that I am not breaking
In the depth of the dark dungeon
And I know that I
Will not beg for the embarrassing pardon for your sake
For orphanhood is beautiful
I was an orphan before you

Orphanhood reared me
Taught me how to resist my black sadness
To grow like the wild trees
Extend my roots underground so
I may soak up my life
I recognize the taste of honey dissolved
In the gourd fruits
For orphanhood is my father
Taught me how to say to the wonderful sunlight
O Father
And to grow like wild trees with no ego

O my two children
How I loved you
But I loved freedom more
How much I sang for the blue sleep
To close your eyes
And hide you
From the ghost of summer insomnia
But I had been singing
For people's awakening
From the death of the black age, I was
Resisting the torture by the guards

Do not cry on the night of my execution
For orphanhood is
Softhearted and beautiful
And dying for a better morning,
On the fields of passion, is noble

I will dissipate some of your solitude
For night is terrible and long
And I will seed in my unknown tomb for your sake
And for the sake of the eyes of the children, sweeter
Than the joyously lighted summer moon,
Nurseries of olives and carnations
That when my branches extend over the grave
You would find a shadow

And thus I push forth my head to the hangman, embracing "No"
In the face of hysterical hatred visible
On the brow of the age

O my two children
O breast down of wild hatchlings
I am here paying the hangman with my head
On a plate of poetry of silver and pure gold
So I may know through revolution and poetry the way of the Lord
And I know you have no water
I know you have no trees
I know that no Omar bin al-Khattab I meet at the military prison
And that I am unbroken
In the depth of the dark dungeon
And I know that I
Will not beg for the embarrassing pardon for your sake
For orphanhood is beautiful
I was an orphan before you
Shaltami beams triumphantly over the branches.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

The treats continue


March is a festive month in my family because we have two March birthdays, Hana's on the 23rd and mine on the 12th. This year, the kids must be entering their "treat the parents phase," or something like that. Tala's interest in cooking seems to be growing rapidly these days. I might have all started with her being my assistant in preparing the weekend shakshooka. But they also seem to have a growing interest in setting things up, planning and all.

The kids conspired with Nicole (nanny, double agent) to treat us with a surprise dinner. They specifically wanted it done on a date that falls half way between our birthdays. That date would have been last Thursday, but Tala had a girl scouts meeting that evening, so they settled on Wednesday.

When I came home from work, Moody noticed me, and he ran inside. Then he came back out and started trying to distract me with questions about what we were going to have for dinner, etc. Then he just asked me to stay outside until Mom got home. OK! By the time Hana arrived both Moody and Tala were outside, and they finally ushered us in.

The table was completely set with a four-course dinner. Salad, shrimp, porcupine meatballs (with rice in the mix), and chocolate cake. But that wasn't all! There were flowers, and Tala introduced it as a "candle lit dinner," lol lol lol. Of course they got a lot of help from Nicole, but she let them make choices and do as much as possible on their own.

Moody added a little bit of his own creation, a dish of honey-baked shrimp. Very simple recipe: shrimp, pour some honey, top with crushed crackers, then bake. It was all gone very quickly.

We were both surprised by their ability to keep a secret for at least two weeks. Even when they made us breakfast in bed, they said nothing about the planned dinner. The week before the dinner, Tala wouldn't stop asking us. "Do you like salad?" "What's your favorite flower color?"

Most of all, we were happy to see them go to such length for the good cause of bringing happiness to someone they love. Yeah, the work was theirs (and Nicole's), the pleasure was ours, but the sense of success was shared all around.


Saturday, March 13, 2010

Happy Birthday!

Suliman Ahmed Dregia, born in Mesrata, Libya, 1960.

Yesterday was Sol's 50th birthday, on paper. The precise day of his birth is unknow, but estimated to be sometime in April. When registering him, his father, Ahmed Suliman Dregia, decided to give him the same birth day as king Idris.

The kids planned to surprise him. They decided to blindfold him while we drive to his favorite restaurant, Carrabba's. We took many diversions on the road to disorient him and it worked out. Once we arrived there, he had no clue what part of town we were in.
We had a nice time and the kids were happy and sweet. Of course, Ahmed sang to him "sana hilwas ya gameel" first thing in the morning.

Happy 50th birthday Sol, and many many years we are all happily together! We love you... You do a lot for us (quoting Moody).

Sunday, March 07, 2010

Breakfast in Bed...

Cheesy papaya, toast and butter, a blueberry, and orange juice. -Courtesy of Moody and Tala!

This morning I was awakened by Moody and Tala storming in my room shouting, "Wake up, wake up. Time for breakfast." They set me up in the bed with cushions behind me and served me and Sol breakfast.

"We used blueberries for garnish instead of parsley," said Moody, "We brainstormed and came up with this breakfast since there wasn't much in the fridge."

"An early birthday treat for the two of you!" said Tala.

It's becoming a habit of theirs to prepare me breakfast on Sunday, and they're upscaling every time. Check pictures for another breakfast treat on February 28.

We sat relishing the breakfast while Moody read to us "Smoky Night."

I am very impressed--Sol and I must be doing a fantastic job as parents! *taking the credit after all*

A red and black Italian leather sofa I'm in love with: $3,000...

An Italian leather jacket I have my eyes on: $400...

Breakfast in bed by two angels: PRICELESS!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Santa, All I Want is Peace and Quiet!

I'm tired! Been working all day. I cooked, did laundry, cleaned the desk, cleaned the med cabinet, started the tree decoration, etc., etc., etc. Now I'm sipping my calming herbal tea, and hoping to be able to take a nap soon. What's up with the kids today? They can't stop talking at all... All I'm asking for is some minutes of peace and quiet where I don't hear a sound and I don't have to answer any of the non-stop questioning! Ma ma mia!

OK, nothing seems to be working and questions and requests for attention are pouring on me as I'm writing this... mama mia!

December 10, Thursday, was our 11th anniversary. I didn't have anything on mind or planned on anything. But when I came home, Tala greeted me in the garage and ordered me to close my eyes while she guided me inside. Inside, she handed me a card she made and I found a vase of my favorite flowers (stargazers or oriental lillies) and a cake from my favorite bakery! What a wonderful surprise. Then all 3 dragged me out to go have dinner. It was very nice and warm.





Last Thursday, Moody had an event at school about the Railroad Underground movement. He was playing William Hanby. Sol attended, I could not since it was during the day. In the same evening Tala had her Holiday Performance at school. She read a poem about Eid that the teacher came up with. It was a nice touch of the school and the first year we don't have to argue with them about not being all inclusive.

Yesterday we got the tree. The kids are so worked up and hyper wanted to decorate it right away. We didn't. instead we went to watch Avatar in 3D. Great, great movie; I highly recommend it. It was 2hrs and 40min long, but not boring at all.
Today, of course the kids started decorating the tree before we got up. I asked them to take all the ornament down so I could put the lights and streamers first. Appearently, they got bored and decided to take all the tys out of the 2 humongous toy boxes in the basement. After fighting with them so many times, they are now taking 15-minute turns. One cleans the toys, while the other decorates the tree, then they switch and so on. I am NOT doing any of that!

The weekend is over, and I didn't get to rest like I wanted to... again! Well, at least the atmosphere is festive inside and outside the house.
I forgot about Eid! We had a good one again. Suhir and I took Tala and Rayann to Sweet&Sassy for manicure, pedicure, hairdo, and makeup. They had a blast. We also got together with 2 other families and had fresh Eid 3esban, yum yum!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving, White Eid!

This year I decided to make duck instead of turkey. It was a last-minute decision. The kids objected, but I ignored them :) Actually, the duck came out very nice, tender, and juicy. The kids were so excited about Thanksgiving and Eid, coinciding together.

Tala wanted to help cook. She made "ants-on-a-log". It was her own idea and made it all by herself. Moody volunteered to make dessert. They both made a list of the ingredients they needed and handed it to Sol. They go what they wanted!

I was planning on making pecan tart as usual. Unfortunately, I could not. I had an upper endoscopy on Wednesday to dilate the area where the esophagus was joined to the intestines, and had a rough time afterward with nausea, gas, and pain. Nausea is still persisting! Anyhow, I skipped the tart and the yams. It was a great dinner nonetheless!

It started snowing today-first snow of the year on Eid day! Moody and Sol are going to the mosque for prayer, while Tala and I are heading to Sweet'n'Sassy!

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Halloween Aftermath!

Ugh, I'm so totally stuffed with candy! Trick-or-treating was last night. The kids had 2-bagfuls of candy, and we can't resist, except for Sol. My favorite is Starburst--I'm chewing right now. Tala decided she wanted to be a ballerina, and a beautiful, graceful one she was! Moody dressed as the Scream character with blood oozing off the mask... ooooh scary!


Moody had a bad day with Nicole last week, so we decided to ground him from trick-or-treating. At night, he brought us this letter. We could not say no--how could we!

I'm off to Cleveland tomorrow and will be back Wednesday night. The kids had been asking for spaghetti with meatballs, so I cooked that today and some desheesha. They are covered till I'm back.

Here's some Halloween artwork from Tala. One skeleton is on the treadmill; the other two are not decided what they want to do: One wants to play basketball and the other wants to play with dolls.

Booey Halloween!


Sunday, October 25, 2009

Settling Down!

It's the time of the year when things settle down and we get in a routine. It is nice to have that back this year. Last year was choas, but it was also nice in its own way -- kind of bitter and sweet. I was sick just out of surgery, but Mama and Baba were here and so were Anas and Juju.

The kids and I went to the Fall Fest at Whittier on Friday evening. Then Moody went with Nicole for a sleepover with Logan. Tala got so upset and was crying for a while saying that she misses Moody, and the howuse is not the same without him--true! We tucked her in bed, but then found her sleeping on the stairs later at night. Sweet Lalla!

Sol went to the OSU game on Saturday with Esayed. Tala and I went to the mall for some shopping. Tala thought it was so rude of Victoria's Secret to show women in their undies and in big posters! "So gross!" She kept saying. Yep, agree. Later we met with Nadia and Zainab and the kids for lunch. Moody joined us too and we ran into Shebra. It was a nice, unplanned get together.

Today, Ann Rigney came over with her two grandsons, Corey and Evan. The kids played together for a couple of hours, had lunch, and then we headed out to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs in 3D. It was OK; the kids loved it.


I'm still contemplating whether to sign the kids up for dance his year or not. I need to decide today! Things are getting too busy for me at work. I'm heading two major projects besides everyday work and the little things here and there. The company is going through a major re-org which we're calling Transformation, and I'm leading one of the workstreams of the Purchasing Transformation Journey. It's very demanding and challenging, and I love it. I'm enjoying my job to the fullest and am very pleased with my manager. I owe the challenge and the high visibility I'm getting to him--he's awesome! Sol is going through a major change at work as well. They will be moving from the quarter system to a semester ,and that involves a lot of work on his end to prepare the new curriculum. Oh, what fun!

Tala learnt about producers and consumers last week at school. She was telling us about that and said "I told Mrs. Loefertt that we are producers since we grew tomatoes and peppers in our yard. And then we become consumers when we eat them." Very smart, Loli! She wants to go to a knitting class at the library and knit a sweater with a heart on it for me. I promised to take her to the class. She reminds me of when I was young and used to knit hats and scarves myself. Oh, what days!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Strictly Speaking...


I finally remembered to take the camera, to put this baby on record.





It's no mistake, they really mean it.

...computers are dummer than people. Right?

Sunday, October 11, 2009

The Perfect Fall Day!

Baba turned 80 today! Happy birthday, Baba!

We had awesome weather today, sunny and crisp with not so much wind. The temperature was about 58° F (~15°C). It was the perfect day for the farm trip with the girl scouts. We went to Farmville, uh I mean Devine Farms, about 45 minutes east of Columbus. Moody lost his way in the corn maze and he and Luke had to find a way out through the corn. The trip was very refreshing, and the kids had loads of fun. Check out the airbrushed pumpkins down below.

Tomorrow it will be exactly one year from the day Mama and Baba arrived in Columbus. This time last year, Anas and Juju were here with us. We had such good times with Anas and Juju, as well as Mama and Baba. We all miss them a lot. Moody and Tala still talk about their siblings, remembering those days, and they love wearing their clothes.

October the 15th will be a year since my surgery--how time flies! I can say I have come a long way in terms of recovery. And my family has come a long way in terms of coping.

Last night, the boys kicked me out of my room, so they could have a sleepover! I slept in Moody's room.

I have a busy week ahead of me! I will be in a workshop for 3 days, then going out of town on Wednesday and coming back Friday evening. Work never slows down, it only moves in one direction--up!

The kids just went to bed. Moody is so happy... He kept telling me I'm his favorite Mom! And I kept reminding him that I'm his only Mom! He just now told me that I'm his favorite person in the whole world, and that I'm always calm! lol Sweet Moody!

Oh, and Obama got the Nobel Prize for Peace?! What's up with that?! And, I was disappointed with the LCROSS lunar impact images, kind of expected more; though it is remarkable to be around when such events take place.


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