I have not been keeping up with the blog for a while now. Not that I'm busy, rather just taking it easy and not inflicting any pressure on myself, be it blogging or other commitments. I finally joined Facebook; I resisted it for a while though. At first, it seemed full of dawsha and very chaotic, but now that I got the hang of it, I like it. I connected with long lost friends, going back to school days in Libya.
I have finished my treatment in end of April and it took a long time for the side effects of the chemo to subside. I still have the nausea though and I'm getting really tired of it. Today, I weighed myself and I'm 5 pounds less. My weight stabilized for the last couple of months, but it seems to be going down again. I don't have clothes that fit me anymore, and I don't want to buy yet. I have been buying clothes and after couple of weeks, they become loose on me. I had a CT-Scan in June, and a mammogram recently. Thankfully, both were clean. My next CT-Scan is in September. My hair is still falling out a lot, I hope it stops!
My li'l brother, Ayman, is in Germany preparing for his PhD. It is nice to have him, Amal, and the kids closer. His son, Abdelrahim, was born on May 20 in Dussledorf. He is so cute, can't wait to hold him!
My niece, Shatha, passed the high school national exam (in libya) with a 90%! I'm so proud of you Shosho. I tried, and was hoping, that she would come and spend the summer with us, but it ain't gonna happen this summer. She's going to Germany instead.
On July 4th, we went to Chicago and spent a lovely time with Magda and Tawfik.
My friend, Nadia, has her sister and 4 kids visiting her from overseas. I'm so happy for them, but envy them at the same time.
I still have not decide on the Tibra Awards this year. I feel I'm not up to the pressure yet, but at the same time it hurts to see Tibra idle. Gotta make up my mind soon. Actually, gotta pick up my life where I left it last September. Nothing feels the same anymore. Sometimes I feel good about how far I've come and the outcome of the treatment and the prognosis, but other times I feel down knowing how vulnerable I am, and fearing the unknown of what's to come with every test. I need to get over it soon and enjoy things more. I need to snap out of it.
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I have finished my treatment in end of April and it took a long time for the side effects of the chemo to subside. I still have the nausea though and I'm getting really tired of it. Today, I weighed myself and I'm 5 pounds less. My weight stabilized for the last couple of months, but it seems to be going down again. I don't have clothes that fit me anymore, and I don't want to buy yet. I have been buying clothes and after couple of weeks, they become loose on me. I had a CT-Scan in June, and a mammogram recently. Thankfully, both were clean. My next CT-Scan is in September. My hair is still falling out a lot, I hope it stops!
My niece, Shatha, passed the high school national exam (in libya) with a 90%! I'm so proud of you Shosho. I tried, and was hoping, that she would come and spend the summer with us, but it ain't gonna happen this summer. She's going to Germany instead.
My friend, Nadia, has her sister and 4 kids visiting her from overseas. I'm so happy for them, but envy them at the same time.
I still have not decide on the Tibra Awards this year. I feel I'm not up to the pressure yet, but at the same time it hurts to see Tibra idle. Gotta make up my mind soon. Actually, gotta pick up my life where I left it last September. Nothing feels the same anymore. Sometimes I feel good about how far I've come and the outcome of the treatment and the prognosis, but other times I feel down knowing how vulnerable I am, and fearing the unknown of what's to come with every test. I need to get over it soon and enjoy things more. I need to snap out of it.
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really good to have you back and to read the updates. good luck
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